Friday, September 11, 2009
u said we were alike but in actual fact he was better than me. i am always not able to put myself into yr shoes when we quarrel until much later when i have calm down. i really don like it but we are always quarreling a few times in jus one week. we can be very happy at one moment den suddenly turn gloomy the next moment. all this can happen in jus a single day. i dono y are we like tis but i will change and make our r/s a sweeter one. i know i am not a very nice guy or a very nice bf, and my reputation sucks like hell. but its true tat i love u and my feelings are god damn true. i dono a lot of things regarding r/s cuz everything does not bother me in the past so i don give a damn bout wat others wan from me. however its kinda diff now, i care bout how u wan me to be, i care bout how i can become a better bf to u and i care bout u. so it takes me some time to figure how i can achieve the above mentioned. i get quite dumb when it comes to this.also i know the sense of security is a prob to u. i am trying to achieve this but it seems i am still not getting there. this is the only thing u said he was superior over me and it means a lot to me. without this sense of security, i can nv make u trust me completely which i need some from u.
notes of a tragedy
10:52 AM
