today was a tiring day for me...went to meet keong, terry and sin for gym at 2pm...i reach there first followed by terry and then keong and sin...y...cause bastard sin was late...making everyone wait for him...as usual i work out on the machines tat would build my muscles on my chest and arm's area...the gym today was packed with lots of ppl...we had to wait a few min before we could use a single machine...saw a lot of familiar faces over at the gym today...my arms and chest are aching now...but its gives me a sense of satisfaction when i see the effects it has on my body...at least i feel better than i was in the past...ever since i started going to the gym with keong, i have been going constantly every week...it really feels great to have a work out and built up my body...

after gym we went for a swim...u guys must be tinking tat we are crazy...swimming after a couple hours of gym session...but we were serious...straight after gym, we went swimming...erm i tink i had better change it to playing with water...haha...cause we werent really there to swim...went for the slides ride and wave pool...its been a long time since i step into a swimming pool...i was still worrying about the weather when we step into the pool...luckily for us the rain didnt came if not we would have wasted our 2 bucks drenching ourselves in the rain...sin did sth tat made us laugh like hell...we were queuing to get to the slide and sin was in the pool fooling ard the water...then when he wanted to get up onshore, he couldnt...the way he tried to get up was so hilarious...too bad i nv manage to get a video of it...otherwise it would now be on my blog...haha...

after swimming, we went for dinner...but sin and keong abandoned me and terry, and went for dinner with sin's family...so me and terry went over to a nearby coffeeshop for our dinner...and guess wat i had for my dinner...the first dish i ordered was a western chicken rice, which wasnt worthwhile at all...i made a request for more rice but when my order came, it looks like the stall auntie didnt bother to add any but still charge me the extra 30cents for it...finishing the chicken rice, i next proceed on to order a plate of carrot cake...the serving was considered a lot for 2 bucks...after clearing the plate of carrot cakes into my stomach, i finally felt full...everytime after a gym session, my appetite would always be very good...the previous time i had three bowls of rice right after gym...haha...after dinner, it was home for me and terry...but when i reach home, the first ting i did was have another plate of fried bee hoon which my mum cooked...haha...i ate a hell lot of tings today for my dinner...and i am seriously full now but not bloated...

notes of a tragedy
6:03 AM


i sldnt be here now at tis point of time but sld be down at sembawang park having a bbq session with my family and relatives to celebrate my sis's 21st birthday...so y am i at home now blogging...it all boils down to my flu and cough...its so irritating and its affecting me...i feel so weak and my body doesnt seems to belong to me...but anyway nvm, at least i was there for a while before i came home...so i did had some time to catch up with my relatives...its jus like a small gathering which we seldom have...so its quite heartening to me...

well today's main entry is here...i am writing it for my "10" years friend(yh)...he has requested for me to leave a post about him...so here i am trying to tink of good tings to write about him...but if u guys who read tis post and know who is yh then u sld know tat its quite difficult to come up with tings tat is good about him...do u agree with me, keong and sin...haha...so let me tink...anyway he is a friend of mine which i got to know during my secondary sch days...and i am starting to regret it...haha...jus joking la...without him maybe i might not have any friends during my sec 4 years...haha...cause of some problems, i become close friends with him...and till now its still the same...though he is a bit bastard, cb, knn, and a pu bor kia(jus a bit la, abit of everyting u know)...but once a friend and we will always be friends...touching enough ma, yh...lol...

notes of a tragedy
4:55 AM


jus got back home from toa payoh and i am feeling so sick now...thanks to my newly known friend, yong quan...lol...i gonna fuck him upside down for tat...i dono how long it has been since i have fallen sick...but now i am feeling weak all over...tink i am going to have a fever soon...hai...jus ate two panadols and it hasnt taken any effects on me yet...and now i am feeling worse cause of the bball game i had jus now...the flu is irritating me...argh...feel so sick now...wat can i do now...take a rest...but i gonna blog finish first before i head to my comfortable bed...haha...

not only is the flu bothering me...but my right ankle is also showing its invinicible effects on me...its been swollen for i tink 1 mth but it still hasnt heal completely...the swollen part can still be seen and it hurts sometimes when i walk...i tink i will have to stop my sports activities for some time...otherwise my ankle is nv gonna heal...

got to know some new friends today...jocelyn, adeline and nona...they are all friends of yong quan and they a bunch of crazy peeps...its really fun being with them...u will nv stop laughing with them ard...haha...but i have jus known them for one or two days, so will have lots to tings to catch up before i can really mix ard well with them...

there are dark eyes ard my eyes and i cant seems to get rid of it no matter how long i slp...so depressing...haha...gonna head for bed soon...so i shall pronounce myself dead for the day now...bye...

notes of a tragedy
7:54 AM


hmm i am now slacking at home and jus feel like blogging...i read sometings and many thoughts jus came into my mind...a few years back, i had this wonderful bunch of friends...though we were always creating troubles and were considered quite rebellious, but still i felt really happy whenever i was with them...i believe this is a feeling felt by many...no matter how bad or good your friends are, u will still feel happy when u are with them...i rmb one incident when our sch organised a flag day for us students...on the morning of tat day, i met up with my bunch of friends and we went for breakfast tgt...it was about 6plus in the morning at that time...after breakfast, we took a bus down to bb community centre for the flag day...when we went to report to the organiser, we were told tat we would be appointed to a certain place which i had already forgotten...but we ended up in west coast and not the specified location tat we were told to go to...then we started playing ard over there and eventually we climbed up the "spider web"...up at the top, we sat in one circle and began chatting ard and sang some songs...tis was a memory tat will sometimes repeat itself in my mind...though tis incident happened a long long time ago but its still so clear in my mind...cause at tat moment, i really felt as though we were one big family...warmth tat i don get from my family, i felt it from this group of guys...i really like tis bunch of friends but tings jus wasnt meant to be...cause of a spate of events, i left the group...it was really a sad ting for me...i felt closer to them than to my family...they were my everyting at tat point of time...but since then i too have made a lot of other new friends...i sometimes wonder would we be able to put down all our grudges and sit down again for a chat...its bothering me so much tat i sometimes cant sleep peacefully...u guys know who u are if u guys ever read tis post...

now tis paragraph is up there for another friend of mine...i dont know if u read my blog ever since tat fateful day...but then tis entry is written solely for u...a year plus have gone unknowingly since u moved overseas...and its reaching two years soon...u have been my best friend ever since the incident over me and some other guy which i dont really wish to mention, jus in case he saw tis post and got angry with me...its ok if u don wish to talk to me or look for me, i wont take it to heart...cause to me once u are my best friend, u will always be...its a ting tat will nv change...i dont really wish to quarrel with u over someting tat is so trivial and meaningless...we have known each other long enough to know wat on each other mind without speaking...u will be coming back to singapore soon and i wonder if we will be able to meet up...wish u and your gf will be tgt always...best friend always...

notes of a tragedy
11:22 PM


its 2118 now and i jus finished my dinner not long ago...jus got back home from orchard...very long nv contact fiona le then today suddenly she msg me ask me go out...i was shocked...lol...so after sch i went home for my lunch and then i went down to somerset mrt station to meet fiona...didnt know wat to do so we ended up going to cineleisure for a movie...fiona wanted to watch a horror movie so we chose colic and bought two tickets...the show was to be started at 1720 but we were early by an hour plus...so we went to tcc to grab a drink to quench our thirst...over at tcc i witnessed a very funny ting...there was tis couple sitting next to us and the guy was busy writing down notes for his studies and not bothering about his gf...and when i look at the girl, she was like so sad and quietly sitting there looking at her bf writing notes...then suddenly her bf closed his book and immediately, the girl's face brighten up but as suddenly as the guy closed his book, he opened it again...and once again the girl's expression became very down...haha...she's like a servant rather than a gf to the guy...

the time finally reached 1720 and we proceeded to the cinema and looked for our seats...after a short wait, the show finally started...wats the most irritating ting to happen when u are watching a movie...tat is when ppl starts talking loudly and hp starts ringing...it jus happen today in the cinema which i was in...there was tis bunch of girls who were sitting behind us and was talking about loudly like nobody else business...its so inconsidering considering the fact tat even when someone has hissed them to stop their loud chattering, they continued to do so with no shame at all...as we were watching a horror movie, there's bound to be some scary and disgusting scene...the girls were like kukus who have nv watched any horror movie before and started screaming even before the scary part was even out...and they were screaming like there was no one else in the theatre...so inconsiderate...i know its normal to scream and shout when u watch a horror movie...but the way they do it is so exaggerated...its as though they were being killed...

then after the movie, fiona went to sengkeng to meet her friend and for me, i went back home for my late dinner...haha...

notes of a tragedy
5:26 AM


today is a sat yet at 8.50 in the morning, i am in the sch...y...cause i have a street soccer competition(my team: haikal, sharil, taufiq, helmi and tan) today...met sharil and haikal at sembawang mrt station and proceed to sch tgt...we were told to reach sch by 9 by the organiser but we only got to know tat our first match was to be played at 1.40...9 to 1.40...its almost 5 hours of waiting time...so in the end we(me, sharil, haikal, taufiq and luqman)went to jalan kayu for prata...the chesse prata is really nice...if i have a car i would go down for it at least 4 times a week...lol...then after the prata feast, we went back to ang mo kio and got to a lan game shop for a game of counterstrike...its been a long long time since i touched counterstrike again...but i tink i hadnt really lost my touch since i was able to knife sharil...haha...played on for bout an hour and then we made our way back to the sch...waited for another 1 hour or so and finally our first match started...the game ended with the scoreline 2-0...we won our first game...after tat our second game came and we lost 2-1...so after the second game, we rested a while and decided to leave for home since there wont be a third game for us anymore...so we got onto helmi's car and he drove me home...

jus when we were about to reach my house, tan called us...he said we were through to the third round cause of a goal difference...lol...if he had called a little bit later i wouldnt have gone back to sch with sharil they all...so luckily he was early...so we went back to sch again for our third match...and we won with a scoreline of 2-1...then the fourth match we won 4-0...and finally it was down to the finals and we were finally defeated... defeated through penalty shots...hai...anyway, we got second and at least got a medal each...its our first try and we already got to second place, i tink if the next sports championship comes again, i will join again too...the only regret i got was not joining the basketball challenge also...but since its already over, then no use brooding over it...

notes of a tragedy
5:24 AM


finally back home after gym...feeling so tired now but satisfed...cause after many weeks of gym sessions, the results are finally showing a bit...haha...shall continue going til i am fully satisfied with the results...took some disgusting but funny pics in the gym's locker room:
pics tat i took while we were preparing to go to the jacuzzi...disgusting right... haha...


another pic of me posing in the locker room...lol...

i am so frustrated with sch nowadays...so many quizzes and tests...almost one everyday...went to sch at 8plus today...surprisely i wasnt late...haha...had a quiz again today for c#...hai...dono if i will pass...then after c# it was down to blk m for html lesson...html lesson are quite interesting most of the time...so i quite enjoy attending the lessons...then after the lessons, i went over to meet keong and attend his lesson with him...lol...his lesson is so boring...after tat we went to meet yh and went for gym...finally i am back home le...

notes of a tragedy
3:32 AM


photoshop sucks to the core...argh...i dono how to use it...i'm like an idiot using a high profile technology...hai...wat am i going to cope with it...i wonder...anyway life's a high today...went to sch at 8plus today...was late for the english lesson...luckily for me the test jus started when i reached the class...if was quite an easy test which i finished it very fast...then the teacher taught us some tongue twisters when we are going to be tested on next week...the only interesting ting in the english class is the tongue twisters...haha...after the lesson, i went and meet sharil and he accompanied me to tanjong pagar to give my time sheet from my agent...then he went home as he had work at 3pm...so i went alone over to city hall to hand in my timesheet to sean...jus as i was about to go home, i received a msg from a pu bo kia asking me to meet him...so i went over to lot1 to meet yh...went to k pool again...after rounds of billiard, we went over to x square and i played winning eleven...so boring right...haha...i know my life's boring...but the interesting part is in my next paragraph...

as we had nth to do after playing winning eleven, we went back to k pool and slack...but then we ended up playing pool again...but tis time there was sth interesting but at the same time disgusting...two pool tables away from ours there was a couple playing pool too...but their actions caught mine and yh attention...they were french kissing "passionately" when playing pool...it was like if u wanna kiss y do it in k pool...cant u find somewhere more isolated to kiss...its as though they were afraid tat no one will notice them...(though i tink if they hadnt did those actions, no one would ever notice them...haha)tat not all...as we continued with our game, we noticed tat their actions were always changing...from kissing to touching...i cant figure out y they chose to did it in public...they look like two horny despos trying to eat up each other...nvm about...let me continue with wat happen next...the girl didnt know how to play pool so her bf was trying to teach her...but they look more like having sex than playing pool...the girl bend down to try to hit the ball and the immediately went behind and was like teaching her how to hit the balls...but actually he was hugging her using his dick to rub her ass...omg...its so indecent...it happened quite a few times...next was even more interesting...the girl sat on top of the pool table with her legs crossed...and look so bitchy...its like she was trying to seduce the guy...oh man...when me and yh saw tat we were laughing like hell...then keong came and meet us and he saw all tat too...he was also shocked to see it...i have a word of advice to the couple, though i tink they wont be seeing tis post, please if u wanna do all those tings, please do it at home or somewhere isolated...

now its over to another fucked up but funny ting we(me, keong and yh)did at long john silvers...we went over to long john for dinner after our pool game...it all happened when i proceed to the counter to order my food...the person who was serving me was a young girl...look like 15 or 16...our conversation went like tis...me:"can i have a set of combo 1 with coleslaw" counter girl:"ok sure, chilli or ketchup" me:"chilli, erm can i have more chilli" counter girl:"huh, one chilli*laughs*" after laughing she shouted my order to the kitchen staff and told her colleague about the one chilli "joke"...and her colleague laughed with her...then when i wanted to return back to the table with my food, the counter girl winked at her friend and mummbled "one chilli" and they started laughing again...when i got back to my seat, i told keong and yh wat happen and keong did a fucking ting...he went over to the counter and ask for one CHILLI(purposely)...and he got his one chilli from the girl...and next ting he did was even more fucked up...he took all the chilli sauces packets, totalling up to six or seven, and went back to the counter to return them the chilli packets...we were laughing like hell when keong returned...i laughed till i was so full and couldnt finish my food...then went i went over again to the counter to get some tissue, the counter girl wanted to give me some packets of chilli instead...lol...if anyone of u reading tis post was there u too would laugh like crazy...

finally today met up with sin ye le...he came over to lot 1 to meet us...its like decades since i saw him...went up to k pool again to play pool with sin ye and then we went down to slack before going back to our respective home...

notes of a tragedy
7:09 AM


this entry is delicated to everyone in this whole wide world...actually my every single post is delicated to everyone...ppl who reads my blog(i wonder if there is anyone though)...anyway i am not too sure wat to blog now either...jus suddenly have the urge to blog...ok i know wat i shall blog on today le...its the topic on love...

i believe love is sth tat everyone craves for, be it the old or the young...when u are in love, u will feel tat everyting is so perfect and u will be tinking of marrying the person u are dating now...but when tings go wrong and start crumbling down, tat where u feel the pain, the hurt and get depressed...recently one of my close friend jus got into tis kind of situation...i gave him a lot of advice and opinions of my own...advice and opinions tat will only ever come out of my mouth and nv in my actions...y...cause i don practice wat i preach...haha...anyway i tink my friend finally sorted out his thoughts and decided to let the girl go...i'm glad for him...

when i thought about it, i feel tat my friend is very lucky...though he has broke up with his gf but he has really experienced the feeling of love...its a feeling tat i have always wanted to have but unfortunately i have nv felt tat way before...the only girl i ever loved would be the one whom i had the most memories shared with her...tis memories will stay with me forever and nv be forgotten...i am not seen as a emotional person by many so i tink blogging is going to be the only way for me to really express myself and show the emotional side of me which no one has ever seen i guess...

i hate myself for not being able to express my feelings the way i want it to be...i hate myself for having the character tat i have now...i hate the way i feel so jealous and envy of others...and i hate the way tat i always bottle tings up to myself...basically i hate the way i am projecting myself to the outside world...after years of being so, i have become a person who doesnt show his true feelings out...often saying tings which is the opposite of how i really feel...i have built a wall in front of me over the years to prevent others from knowing the real me...which makes it difficult for others to understand and know the real me...i dono y i turned out tis way but tis has already happen and its difficult for me to really open up myself to a single person, not even my parents...maybe tat y i have nv shown any true feelings for anyone, in particularly girls...even if i truely love a girl no one believes me...i tink the way i project myself to others has made many to have distrust and insecurity in me...but who else can i blame except for yours truly(tat me)...

notes of a tragedy
9:23 AM


havent seen shuhui for such a long time le...she is the only longest friend tat i can boast of...it been 9 long years since i know her and its going to be a decade soon...so met up with her today after sch and we went over to vivo...she wanted to buy a dress for a farewell party tml so i accompanied her to vivo to shop for the dress...had dinner over at noodle hut the moment we reach vivo...we were both so hungry...haha...then when we were slurping on our noodles happily, the girl beside us suddenly started talking and she was like a machine gun...lol...didnt even pause to catch her breath...jus keep saying and saying...and guess wat she was chatting about with her friend...they were gossiping about someone in their office...suspecting one of her colleagues is having an affair with the boss...haha...i didnt mean to listen to their conversation but they were sitting very close to us and the lady was speaking so loudly...even if i shut my ears i can still hear wat she is talking lor...lol...anyway after dinner, i brought shuhui over to forever 21 to search for the dress she wanted to buy...the moment she went into the shop, she fell in love with it...she was so engrossed in her shopping...looking dress after dress...finally she pick two dress and a pair of sunglasses totalling up to 157 bucks...expensive right but nvm la as long as she like it then its worth it...after tat we went on to shop a while before moving up to the third for and view the beautiful scenery...stayed up there for a short time and shuhui decided to go home le as she had to wake up early tml...so we went home...

tink i gonna miss her a lot...dono when i will be able to meet up with her again cause she might be going to bali...i also dono y but suddenly felt so se bu de towards her...she has found such a great job now and might be travelling around the world soon...somehow i jus feel tat sometings between the two of us are going to change when she begins her travelling around the world...maybe i am jus being paranoid but looking at her now i suddenly felt so small and insignificant...

notes of a tragedy
8:02 AM


didnt update my blog for two days le...so now i am going to blog about yest and today...yest went to sch as usual...sch ends at 1 yest and after tat i met up with keong and yh...we were going to a gym in a country club...has been going to the gym to work out tis few weeks...and it is finally showing a bit of effects(tat wat i feel la...but not too sure)...after the gym we went over to hougang with the intention to look for keong's gf...cause she was sick so keong wanted to go over and accompany her...as for me, yh and long we accompany keong to hougang for dinner...but on the way there sth cropped up...keong's gf msg keong and told him tat he didnt need to go over le cause she was feeling better leand she was meeting her friends for dinner over at hougang mall...right after seeing the msg keong turned moody...lol...so keong went for dinner with us and we saw his gf over at hougang mall too...it was the first time i saw his gf and she look so fierce...the moment she saw us she was like so unhappy...haha...didnt know y...after dinner keong went over to his gf's house and the rest of us left for home...

then today was a disaster for me in the morning...i had a terrible stomache and didnt feel like going to sch...but in the end i still made it to sch but i was late for about 30 min...and the teacher was grumbling tings at me when i reached the class...i wasnt in the mood to hear her complaints so i shrugged her off with some undisclosed comments...and she replied saying tat she would complain to my personal mentor tat i wasnt passing up my work on time and i was always late for her lesson...lol...actually it was on purpose cause i didnt like the teacher so i went late...anyway after her lesson my mood brighten up a bit so i went over to food junction to meet joanne and cindy for lunch...had a chat with them before moving over to the mrt station to meet yh and went down to plaza sing...yh was going to get his rings so i went down with him...after tat we went over to lot 1 for pool and billiard again...my life is so predictable...lol...pool, billiard, soccer, basketball and gym...and tat all...haha...met up with keong at lot 1 at about 4 plus...then it was pool and billiard again before we went home...

glad tml is friday again...gonna have me weekly supply of soccer games again...haha...

notes of a tragedy
6:36 AM


now is 1019 and i am in sch now...having a lesson on html now...i am sitting beside taufiq and he has requested me to post a blog about him...so here i am now...taufiq is very handsome...he drive a honda civic and lives in tampines...so if u live in tampines u can get to know him and ask him to drive u around...i shall end here cause tis post is only about taufiq, "the singapore idol"...

notes of a tragedy
6:19 PM


sch was the same again...so boring and lifeless(at least it is tat way to me)...8 to 6 today...10 long hours in the sch...oh man...can u imagine tat...and my break time for today sucks to the core...lessons from 8 to 10 and then an hour break...next was another hour of lesson follow by another hour of break then an hour of lesson again and then a break again...sucks right...i don't know how the sch ever came up with tis kind of timetable...is it some kind of joke from them to us...hai...but today johnny, my class rep, push one lesson up so tat our break time became 2 hours instead of 1 hour...and almost all the guys including me were at a lan shop in ang mo kio...they were playing dota...a game which i don't know how to play...the screen looks so messy with all the "heroes" moving about...haha...i wonder how they ever learn to play such a complicated game(complicated only to me)...haha...

after tat we went back sch for maths tutorial and then it was BIS...microsoft execl lesson...test today...but luckily i still managed to do 3/4 of the questions...it was a fairly easy paper though i thought it would be a difficult one...anyway i tink i sld be able to pass tis paper, tat is if nth goes wrong...haha...

notes of a tragedy
5:56 AM


depressed...feeling so depressed now...jus realised tat i had lost sth...sth tat is really impt and means a lot to me...i'm not sure if i can find it back but i definitely hope i can...hai...don't wanna talk about it anymore as it will only make me even more depressed...

ok jus got back home after a day out with yh to PS to buy his rings for lisha...the sales girl in the shop was so shy...haha...i kept disturbing her and asked her some stupid questions...haha...only to realise later on the reason y she was so shy...it was her first day at work...opps...haha...so the rings can only be collected earliest on tis thurs so i will be going down with yh to get his rings again...

after tat we went over to cine for a game of billiard and pool...saw eunice over there too with her poly friends...played for about an hour before moving over to wisma for some window shopping...went into topshop and view a few t-shirts...the shirts are all quite nice but the only problem is it is too expensive...i have no money to buy...haha...so sad...but nvm i shall work and earn more money to buy those clothes tat i like...

felt so bored window shopping so we left for yio chu kang to meet keong and proceed down to chua chu kang for dinner...after dinner the three of us went to k pool for a game of billiard and pool again...after which we sat down and had a brief chat and went home...tat all for today...update again some other days...

WHEN CAN I FIND BACK THE THINGS THAT I HAVE LOST...

notes of a tragedy
6:11 AM


back home after soccer with my sec sch friends...a weekly affair tat will nv fail to entertain me...haha...and its also a weekly affair tat makes me injured everywhere...today i hurt my hips, ankle and hand...hai...dono y i am so suay...always getting myself with all those injuries...

today was boring...had sch in the morning at 10 and ended at 4...then actually was meeting shuhui to go shopping de but in the end we didnt meet so we postponed it to another day...so decided to go find jun chuan they all for soccer...tat all tat happend today...today's entry is such a short one...shall update again some other day...bye...

notes of a tragedy
8:24 AM


1209 and i am still wide awake listening to songs...suddenly feel like blogging so here i am right now...jus saw someone's blog and saw her pics...she look so happy in it and i feel really happy for her...suddenly felt tat it was a good choice not to choose me cause if tat was the case, she might not be so happy now...i might end up hurting her...

upon saying tis, i thought of another gal too...the fate of me and tis particular girl was a long way back...nv ever thought tat i would get to know her, much less falling in love with each other...when i first saw her, my mind was like i can only see her from a far, we will nv get to talk to each other or even know each other...but tings took a turn and without warning, she took a place in my heart and my life...she had walked into a place in my heart where she will stay there permanently...tis is the first time i felt tat way...nv thought it would happen to me...shortly after getting to know each other, we soon became really close...and i could really feel my heart pump a beat faster whenever i see her...no one and i really mean no one except her has ever made me feel tat way before...then someone close to tis girl told me tat she had taken a liking for me and i felt impossible...how could she ever like me...but it did and soon we were always tgt...though we werent tgt but i really treat her as my gf already during tat time...then there was one time when i say the three words to her...the next day her friend came and told me tat she was happy to hear me say those three words cause it was the first time i told her after knowing each other for so long...but the happiness for us were short lived...tings began to go wrong and many tings happened between us...and finally i lost her due of my own stupidity...at tat point of time when she left me, i really felt very depressed...everyday i would look at her pic and will have the urge to cry but each time i held back my tears and told myself to get on with my life...til one day i read sth tat she wrote and finally i broke down...the first time i cry so badly for a girl...she gave me a lot of first times...tings tat i have nv experience before til the day she came into my life...tat the reason y i haven been able to forget her til now...the memories i had with her, the times we spent tgt...its all still so vivid in my mind...its really not easy to forget...but i decided to keep her deep in my heart cause i realised in the end tat i am not going to be the one for her...though i once had the feeling tat she was the one for me...but i have to thank her too...cause of her, i will laugh, i will smile and i will cry...cause of her i know and felt the feelings of happiness and saddness...cause of her, i felt tings i nv felt before...she gave me a totally different feeling from other girls...but it was all not meant to be...she has her own life now and the most i can do now is pray from a far hoping she will be happy in everyting she does...

notes of a tragedy
8:16 AM


my feets are so tired now...feel no strength and power in my feet...its as though it isnt mine...jus got back from dinner with yin hon, ah keong and xiao long at causeway point...its such a tiring day today...went to the gym, sauna and jacuzzi with keong, yh, long and keong's ah gua friend...

keong's friend is really damn gay man...i was trying to work out on the running machine and he came in front of me from out of nowhere and started fixing the running speed to 16km/h...i didnt know y he did tat when its was none of his business...then much later when i was working out on another machine, he suddenly came in front of me again and asked me to put 80kg of weight on the machine and work out with him...when i said no, he said please in a really disgusting and girly tone...wtf...i could feel my hair standing...so i pulled yh to the locker room and told him about it...he wasnt quite convinced at first...but another incident later on made yh, long and even keong feel tat he is damn gay...

after the gym, the whole lot of us went for sauna...at first there was only the four of us in it without keong's friend...we were happily chatting away when suddenly the door swung open and in came keong's friend in his triangular swimming trunks...and tats not all...he was holding a camera...he wanted to take a photo of the four of us half naked...dono wat the hell he is tinking lor...and i also dono how wat he is going to do to the picture...he looks like those who will take our pictures and upload it into a gay site...alamak...after he took our pics he looked at us and said y is there no one taking pics of me...so damn DISGUSTING...after saying tat he turned his back towards us and took a pic of himself with the four of us behind...cant stand it anymore so i started to avoid him as much as i could...

after the sauna, we took a shower and proceeded to the jacuzzi...there were three "pools" over there and two of which are hot and one is cold...and the one tat i said is cold is damn freezing cold...the moment i step in, i could feel my whole body getting numb almost immediately...we tried staying in the freezing cold pool for a minute but none of us could take it...after the jacuzzi, we went over to causeway point for dinner without keong's friend...haha...and after dinner, it was back to home for a good rest...

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