Sunday, January 31, 2010
Day 1 without you by my side, 30/01/2010 :Yesterday, i was out with hsiu chi in the afternoon randomly walking ard amk hub and city hall area. afterwhich i went over to supperclub to attend one of my best friend, SHINE's birthday. i wasn't really in the mood to go down but still i made it over there. i enjoyed myself over there and during that period i push behind all my troubles and just let my hair down for that few hours.
We left the club at ard 4am and slack outside the club area before everyone else left for home except me. walking aimlessly down the street with thoughts of just you towards bugis, i found myself in front of st joseph church. for once, i look up at the cross on the top of the church and sat down on a bench. i don't know what got into me but i actually closed my eyes with both hands held together, i began praying to someone i never believed in before; Jesus. i hope my wish comes true.
Day 2 without you by my side, 31/01/2010 :For the whole day, i was just sitting down in front of my com and rot my time away. i couldn't muster up any strength to do anything except stare into blank space. wondering how you are and what you are doing but i can't really do anything about it and jus wondered. looked through your facebook and found out actually you were taking things in your stride, way better than i do. i can feel the pain. never thought that losing you would bring me this amount of pain. are you already used to not having me around by your side in just merely 2 days? i am not used to it seriously and i think about you every now and then.
notes of a tragedy
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