happy new year to everyone...guess everyone must be out celebrating and viewing the fireworks...didnt mange to see the fireworks cause esplanade was too packed and stuffy...so went over to michelle hse to celebrate her birthday...today was also michelle birthday...went over to marina square's seoul garden for dinner...it was so exp man...30 bucks per person...and there was a time limit of 2hrs...wth...but nvm, i had a pleasant dinner with my friends...didnt do much today...dinner at seoul garden then headed back to yew tee for celebration cum countdown and it was back home...anyway happy new year to u guys again...

notes of a tragedy
9:53 AM


haven been blogging for quite a few days le...cause my com was infected with virus...had to reformat it...anyway i also didnt had much tings happening for me to write about...didnt check my blog for a few days and when i finally got into in, i was in for a shock...it seems tat some ppl was unhappy about me and wrote somethings in my tagboard...i guess it could be ppl who know me if not they wouldnt wrote wat they wrote over in my tagboard...but its alright, i am not really bothered by them...at least i saw two good friends of my speaking up for me...and tat makes me feel real relieved...i realised i do have friends who care about me...thanks peeps...btw to the ppl who detest me out there...pls don spam my tagboard secretly...jus use your real name...i don really care about wat u ppl write so its alright even if u use real names...at least i know u dislike me and i wont be so dumb to continuing treating u as a friend or watsoever...

notes of a tragedy
11:50 PM


clubbing at dxo yest nite with weiping, samson, merlissa, serene, dong liang and chris...out of tis six ppl, three were new friends which i jus got to know yest...serene, dong liang and chris were all newly acquainted friends...they are all great ppl and i clicked well with them...

at first when i first saw them i was quite quiet...cause still didnt really know each other well...but once inside the club, i was a totally different person...haha...serene tot so too...i was so high and kept dancing even when i am sitting down on the sofa...yest nite was damn packed cause its a underage party...the dance floor couldnt accommodate so many ppl but still ppl keep flowing in...ppl pushing here and there jus to find a small space to dance...lol...so squeezy...took many photos in the club yest but cant post it now cause i have got the pics yet...will upload it as soon as i get the pics...

we left dxo at about 2 plus and went over to city hall's 7-11 to buy drinks...after which we proceeded to somewhere to slack and have our drinks...initially we wanted to stay overnight but dong liang wanted to go over to his friend's hse for gambling...so we took two cabs down to yew tee...when we were reaching yew tee, it was about 4 plus and one person suddenly made a request to go back home...and tat person is serene...so i took the cab home with her...when we reach sembawang, the meter was already showing 34 bucks...and guess how much it got to when she reach marine parade...shocked me when she told me the amount...it got up to 64 bucks...first time took a cab till so expensive...haha...but luckily for her, her bf decided to pay for her...haha...

notes of a tragedy
1:32 AM


rome is finally back from china...lol...didnt managed to go to the airport yest to welcome him back...but its ok...met up with him today...went slacking a while at lot 1 before catching up with weiping, samson, nat and rudy at bukit timah...its been so long since i saw nat...haha...shall meet up with him again soon in search for our "purple contacts"...played a few rounds of pool and snooker with them before heading to the coffeshop nearby for our dinner...

after dinner, we went over to rome's hse for a gambling and drinking session...but in the end we were more into our cards rather than the drinks...haha...but it was better tat way for me...i won 21 bucks in total...but it could have been more...anyway i was the sole winner so nvm...after all the fun, it was back to home...

bbq tml...yeah...wonder wat fun i will be expecting tml...haha...but it should be fun...sec sch friends gathering...shall update again tml if there's interesting tings taking place and if there are photos for me to upload...

notes of a tragedy
9:03 AM


the weather hasnt been good tis few days...raining continuously for three days already...and my mood is jus like the weather for tis three days...thoughts of going out with my friends came into my mind but i had no one to go out with...not cause of the rain, even without the rain i oso don tink i will have anyone to go out with...isnt it depressing...haha...but wat can i do...

christmas is nearing and moods for celebrations are jus getting started...its no different for me...but the difference is i am not sure if i will be celebrating with my friends or will i be walking down the colorful streets of singapore alone, feeling helpless and lost...wat would it be...i certainly have no idea...

i have been tinking about a lot of tings tis few days...and i am really starting to regret my actions and choices tat i have made in my whole 18 years of life...if i had made the right choice in the first place, i wouldnt be in such a sorry state now...suddenly i feel so pathetic...and i really so wrong in all my decisions...i have always treated everyone with a true heart but wat i get back isnt always wat i expect...i don mean everyone but jus certain ppl...



notes of a tragedy
6:10 AM


loyal?u are really not suitable to comment me on tat...cause towards u i can really say i am very loyal as a friend...when u was with your gf, u didnt look for me for at least a year...i didnt say anyting but jus continue to live my own life...but when u break up, u came and find me almost everyday...wat do u take me for...when u were happily with ur gal u forget about your friends...it was only when u have probs then u come and find me...u say i am not loyal to friends...cause of u i forsake my lessons and accompany u for counselling...i forsake my lessons to listen to u tell me all your troubles and problems...the moment u call me out, i surely accompany u...as a friend, my conscience towards u is really very clear...and u can call me a backstabber for all u wan cause i don really care...but u are certainly in the position to say i am not loyal to friends...and really i don need friends like u, wastrel...

notes of a tragedy
9:40 AM


wat could have happen to cause such a drastic change in u...i really dono wat i had done or said tat could have made u treat me the way u are doing now...one moment we were still happily chatting away and the next moment your attitude becomes so fucked up...don tink u are the only one feeling upset...i am also feeling it now too after i see ur fucking attitude...i don even know wat is going on and u are there showing me ur fucked up face like i have jus harmed u or quarrel with u...its ok if u don wish me to be ard, jus tell me straight in the face, y wanna keep quiet about it and be such a wimp...if u are gonna treat me like a trash after u find a new friend, its ok with me...i don need a friend like u...y make life difficult for myself when i treat u as a friend but u treat me as a fool...thanks for finally revealing to me wat i "true" friend u are...and bye to u too...

today had soccer meeting with my secondary sch friends at yew tee...all was fine till tis idiot playing bball came...we were playing our own game of soccer when tis group of bball guys came...even though they saw tat the court was occupied by us they still came and interupted our game...at first nth really happen...tings started to occur when their bball fall to my leg and rolled away...one of the guy tot i purposely kicked the ball away and began his starring game...given my character, i also looked back at him...so he came over and started his "speech"...

guy:"u from which gang"
me:"i nv play gang de"
guy:"nv play gang den still talk til so sia lan"
guy:"can talk nicely a not"
me:"u also nv talk to me nicely y sld i talk nicely back to u"
me:"its u who started talking to me so rudely de wat"
guy"i from *** gang leh, cannot talk sia lan with u ar"

tis is the summarised version of our conversation...and the ting tat made me angry was when he say he is from a gang tat y he can talk so rudely to me...but i cant cause i have to gang...wtf...wat kind of logic is tat...then does tat means tat he can kill ppl jus cause he has a gang...don understand the gangsters nowadays...they are jus so arrogant and incorrigible...they tink tat jus cause they have a gang and they can do watever they wan...

then when i was walking home at sembawang, tis guy walk towards me and banged me...dono wat the hell does he wan...wat is he trying to prove by banging into me...tat he is fit...bullshit...next when i was passing by the lift two guys came out of the lift and walked in front of me...then one of the guy turned his head ard twice and kept starring at me like i owed him money and he wan to whack me...wat does he wan man...am i breaking the law jus by walking behind u...i dono u and u dono me so y are u starring at me...stupid and brainless gangsters...if u tink u are really so great, y not jus go murder someone or rob a bank...

fucking idiotic ppl who jus ruin the day for me...and i am really feeling so frustrated over someone and tis kind of tings happen, it jus darkens my mood...hai...

notes of a tragedy
9:07 AM


plans for clubbing and sentosa today were all cancelled last min...cause keong couldnt make it and we decided to call off our sentosa outing...then shirlie called me in the afternoon and asked me to work for 16 days over at jurong west...i agreed and so had to call off my mos trip too...i also dono y i agreed to work...anyway i was damn pissed off by two idiots today at work...they are jus so bias against me...no matter wat i do they jus cant accept it...tat the reason y ppl always say u cant make everyone accept u for who u are...then after work, had a bit of ahcohol before sweeping our butts off the chair and proceed for home...

when i was walking home. i dono y today i couldnt hold my liquor and i vomited...it was at tat moment when i vomited, many thoughts came thru my mind...i suddenly felt very miserable and so alone...y is tat so...i jus don understand...i have always been myself, being there for everyone who might need my help...but y is it tat whenever i need someother ppl's help, i don get any...its not as if i don have any friends...in fact i have lots of friends...but which one of them is really there for me when i am feeling down...i am not someone who likes to complain or grumble alot but still there are times tat i feel like pouring out all my woes to someone...but sadly to say...i cant find tat someone for me to pour out all my woes to...wat wrong have i done to deserve tis...or is it wat i had did in my past life and i am now in tis present life to repay for all the sins i had done...i said in my previous post tat i tink i am going thru my darkest period of time now...after a few days of happenings, i am now more than certain of it...and i know its going to last for a long time...

actually i don expect much for my life...i jus wanna have a simple life with all my friends and family members giving me support and advice when i am down...it makes it easier for me to pull myself up again...but tings jus doesnt work out the way i wan it to be...life isnt perfect...its the ups and downs tat makes our life interesting but its getting too much for me handle...i am not the happy, cheerful, problemless and feelingless person tat everyone makes me out to be...behind every cheerful smile is a sad smile...

notes of a tragedy
10:59 AM


hougang is the place man...its paradise compared to sembawang...how i wish i was living in hougang...anyway, jus now went to hougang to find jian hao and play bball with his friends...but the weather wasnt in our favour and it rained when we reached there...luckily, it didnt last long...and soon we started playing...and i sprained my thumb during the game when the ball hit my hand...wat a day...and its hurting now...wonder if tml i would still be able to make a trip down to the gym a not...down...

hai today's html test was a total disaster...we were asked to make three frames and i jus couldnt do it out...y...cause of a "body"(a html code)...there sldnt be a body inside a frame, but i didnt know tat...and no matter wat i type into the notepad, it jus couldnt work...and i was fed up with it and gave up on the paper...depressed...hai...i tink i gonna fail tis module...wat am i going to do...who can help me with my studies...its so stressful to me...

i suddenly feel tat i am going thru the darkest period of my time...is it so or is it not...i'm not too sure myself either...tings and ppl ard me are not going on smoothly and i suddenly felt abandoned...wats happening to me...i really feel so down...but i dono who i can confide in with...i guess i really need someone to guide me out of tis misery...i cant do tis on my own...

notes of a tragedy
6:42 AM


in my 18 years of life, tis is the first time i encountered a train disruption...when i reached the mrt station in the morning, the station was packed with tons and tons of ppl...and then i caught tis sign through the corner of my eye, "no train service from sembawang to yio chu kang"...wtf...its early in the morning and i am experiencing tis kind of ting...i tink its gonna affect lots of ppl...so no choice...called my dad and asked him to drive me to sch...then while in my dad's car, i heard tis through the radio, "there's been an accident, thus causing the train disruption"...and straight away in my mind, i thought, must be another tragedy of someone jumping into the mrt tracks...dont understand y nowadays ppl like jumping into the tracks to commit suicide...is it a trend now...hai...feel so sad for tis ppl... wonder wats troubling them so much to make the decision to commit suicide...ok enough of my thoughts...so in the end i was still late for lesson but i wasnt the latest...some others were late for an hour plus...

after the first lesson, i had an hour break and i had breakfast cum lunch with fiq and then proceeded to our next lesson, BIS lecture...boring lesson...had a quiz and its my first time passing the BIS quiz...got 7 out of 10...haha...after tat, it was 3 hours of break cause mr foo was overseas and couldnt make it for class tis whole week...so me, jian hao and hsiu chi went to a nearby coffeeshop to slack...i was returning to my seat after visiting the washroom when i saw an ah pek drinking beer...suddenly i too had the urge to drink...so i asked hsiu chi and jian hao if they wanted to share two bottles to beer...and they agreed and so we ordered two bottles of carlsberg...we had a test later on so we didnt drank much...i tink i didnt drink for a very long time le tat y today after drinking two cups, i was already feeling high...if i rmb correctly, i tink the last time i drank was with reeve and jerome many mths back...

so after our beer session, we went back to sch feeling hot...hsiu chi was drenched in his own sweat and jian hao face was damn red...as for me, i was feeling high...lol...i settled down a bit when the test started but had a slight headache, but i endured with it and got on with my test, microsoft access...its quite easy but still i was surprised i knew how to do most of the qns...but in the end i didnt pass up my own work...i took syed's work and passed it up instead...lol...and now i am studying for my html test tml...if i fail again tml, i tink i will have to repeat tis module le...down...hai common test week for tis two weeks before our two weeks holidays...counting down to the day jerome is coming back...another 15 more days to our "reunion"...

notes of a tragedy
6:57 AM


finally back home...made a trip down to yew tee for gym and swimming session with keong, sin and terry today...and as usual my body is aching now...took a pic today in the toilet to show tat i did train myself hard and the effects are showing a bit...lol...
opps, i tink its a bit obsence...haha...

anyway, this is the only pic i took today...the pics below was taken yest...after gym jus now, i went over to woodlands to find stan and buy a bermudas from samuel and kevin...it costed me $27.30 after discount...otherwise it would have costed me 39 dollars...

i know it cant be seen but tat the purpose of it
keong's 50 bucks worth of slippers...

kiss kiss...woots...lol...
a gust of wind jus blew past, making my hair look so dicky...


notes of a tragedy
5:39 AM


finally i am back here blogging...woots...haha...went to cityhall today to buy a pants and then moved over to bugis to alter the pants...the uncle was so busy today and he took almost an hour to finish altering my pants...making me sweat the whole time over there while waiting for my pants...then after tat i went over to far east and look for fishball aka jocelyn...lol...she was working in a small shop called view in far east lvl 1...when i reached there, there wasnt much customers and they left after i went in without purchasing any items...haha...no sales for fishball...soon after sin and keong also reached far east le...so i went over to find them and have dinner with them...bought zinger meal back for jocelyn and sat down a while before leaving cause her boss came back...lol...so me, keong and sin proceeded to shaw house to have a pee...haha...next we went to ngee ann city and slack a while before going over to cine to play some pool...wat a boring day at orchard...nth much to do...then we went home le...not really in the mood to blog today...jus wanted to update on my blog...lol...i know today's blog is boring...but nvm, i tink tml i will have better tings to write on...cause its gym and swimming session with keong, sin and terry tml...wahahaha...there's bound to be some interesting ting going to happen lor...tat it for today...bye...lol...

notes of a tragedy
9:17 AM

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